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          Finally my DH found some time to repair my comp. In between this time, I was swinging from acute depression to mild depression because my 4th IUI also failed. But I feel a little better now. I did manage to squeeze in some work in between. Mostly during the TWW.

starburst runner - nano size

Crocheted flower and leaf.

          I tried making the starburst runner I found on Nima's blog. But then AF happened and I lost all urge to complete it. So I made it nano sized. Hope Nima will forgive me for thus mutilating this runner.

          I went to hospital last week to again see the doc. She looked into my file and coolly said 'Now there seems to be no reason to continue with IUI. So let's start IVF. In your case, even with high stimulation your ovary may produce only one or two eggs. So there seems to be no much using costly medicine for follicular stimulation. So we'll do low cost IVF.' And I asked her 'Madam, But the first time they did IUI in the other hospital they got 4 eggs after stimulation.' And that 'WOMAN' had guts to look me in the eye and tell me 'But that was a long time ago. Now things are much worse.' I wanted to slap her and then bust out crying. But I somehow controlled myself and asked her 'Then madam, why did you make me go through 3 IUI's (plus one cycle wasted coz the doctor was on leave) if time was so important.' And she simply said, 'Well you can never tell.' Doesn't she have any idea that what she's treating so carelessly is my future? Now I've lost all the faith in this 'low cost IVF' thing that she is proposing. I wonder if it is not some other ploy to waste my time, money and precious eggs.
   
          Anyway I have to go through this and there seems to be no other option. So please put in a word to God for me.