Some motifs from different tatting and crochet sites which I reproduced.
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| Pineapple swirl edging - I made a mistake with the second pineapple. I forgot to make one set of chains. Hence the distorted look. :( |
Now an original creation. I didn't follow any pattern when I did this work. But this is just a common combination of rings and chains.
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| I named this one 'The Muddy Star' because of its colour :) |
Hi hi! So pretty! My favourite is the pink rose, so lovely! Your dr seems so insensitive, how ridiculous and ironic when the one who is trying to help you conceive is your worst torturer! I agree with the silly baby doll on the counter at your clinic, torturing you on every visit. I would secretly write a note explaining how you feel and slip it under for reception to read. Geesh!!! I'm sure you're not the only one who feels the sting. Why leave an abandoned baby there anyway??? How silly!! ;) Elizabeth
ReplyDeleteDear Elizabeth, You are an angel. I was worried that I was turning into a psycho coz I was feeling revengeful towards cute babydolls and doctors. But atleast there is one person who identifies with what I feel. And I really like the 'secret note' idea. I'm definitely going to try it on them :) Thanks for your encouragement. XOXOXO - Blue Rose
DeleteI really get it, that's why I just had to respond! At my clinic all 4 walls are plastered with letters upon letters and baby pictures of happy families who have had success with my doctor. At first they were torturous, constant reminders of my sad empty uterus that just can't seem to do what it is supposed to do. But I'm also realizing too, slowly but surely, that these messages (and silly plastic baby dolls) aren't meant to hurt us but are someone's way of trying to help us along this ordeal... Many people approach me with "why don't you adopt?" Or my pregnant sister says to me "I'll carry your baby for you" (!) These sentiments may hurt us because it makes us seem misunderstood (I want to carry, birth and raise my own biological child!!!) but they really are not meant to hurt us. Yes, we seem crazy to others who: 1) have not had to experience the struggle of conceiving, or 2) may not have the same sincere desire of motherhood consume their whole being! Please don't think yourself as crazy! You have a big heart, I see this through your writings, and you seem very sensitive too. You probably experience ultimate happiness and bitter sadness in floods like me! It's part of who we are! That's why we are loved by those who understand us! Chin up! :) Elizabeth
ReplyDeleteEven though I usually try to see things from other people's point of view, I've never been able to identify with the staff of my IF treatment centre. Maybe because I go there when I'm in my worst mood(on the day after AF comes, dreading the pain of IUI etc)But what you said is true. And I'm thankful to God that at least in virtual world I get to meet with people who understand me and share my pain. It makes all the difference in my world :)
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